i believe i am not doing well.. many things not going smoothly for me.

well, i am so in a dilemma, v much like in chris' situation. Owell, never thought such thing would happen. Seriously am at the age whereby i got to make decisions. Wise and correct one.
Just like Aileen who is in the crossroad who needs to make the right decision into where to go after A's. Owell, life's all about making the right decision. Yes, there maybe detour or simply going by a longer route but man, why waste the time? haix. i dunno. no matter wad. i'll cling on.

10:42 pm

n another happy photo.

bro, myself sis and mum. n daddy is behind. the guy in pink i think..

well.. another reason why i should treasure everyone of them..

simply cause: one of my uncle has passed away just this morning.

sigh....

12:02 am

Labels: BOOBIES, BRAG, lifesaving test

11:42 pm

Not an inch of maggie mee would go to waste. I am sOOoo hungry! it's 1.02am!

1. I HAD SUCH A STRESSFUL AND HECTIC DAY. life aint easy as you further progress to acquire new knowledge. Everyday is like a learning journey till the very last breath.

2. I just had a horrible day; perhaps one of the very worse day in my swimming lives. maybe apart from the day when my wallet got stolen. WEWERESCREW.UPSIDEDOWN.INSIDEOUT.INFRONT. BEHIND. EVERYWHERE!!!!

mind you, we had a 5 1/2 hrs length of test cum scoulding. It was hard to swallow. HE tried to make some sense into his scoulding however, it was just difficult to accept whatever he said. Seriously our pride was thrown down to the lowest pit. Even if you defend and say that you are right, in his eyes, you are still wrong. Well, no space for argument. I heard he does that to every single one of the students. SO COME, SAYANG me, i just need someone to give me a hug and say it's alright. Seriously at the point, my tears were about to splurt out. I was controlling trying to be fine. I kept smiling to Jeremy, i feel so bad for him! All he get was nothing but scoulding. Terrible. n i'll forever remember tt nasty OLD MAN who has this ugly dash of moustache. SICKENING PHILIP NG! He asked 2 person wads his name. Unfortunately i was the 2nd one.. i said.. PHILIP SNG! n he shake his head. Then he turn to Adeline and say.. wads my name? she blurted: Philip NG. n he goes SMART GAL! only you are smart. N yong kai n myself was like.. WHAT THE HECK! -roll eyes-

Perhaps the most perfectionist i've ever seen and perhaps the guy who speaks blunty and cut straight down your heart. Blood splurted out. ARGH. Reminded me of the heart question he asked. TELL ME ABOT HEART!

ohhhhhhh anyway just got home. Its like 1.10am now!!! i jus barely completed my RJ. goodness gracious. I need a solid sleep perhaps i am skipping lesson tmr? well, we'll see.

12:44 am

Life have been fair to me so far.
As much as i am concern.
at the very least i get what i want. comtemplating on how far i've come.
well, at least to me, it has been fine.

Was pondering while talking to shah. MAN. what do i wanna BE?
few years down the road.... I do not want to be someone whose what we called: "KIA SI"
hur hur. singaporean. "You say what i do what..." come on! have a mind on your own!
Be someone creative not being bounded by rules and regulations.
Rules are there for us to break. Yes, many a times there are so many boundaries, but Oh well, if you just gonna follow and follow. forever you'll be a follower never dare to step out.

wee, there's a need to be creative. I get frustrated when i just cant think out of the box for a solution...... n i'll go........ I DON't WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE......! Thought of giving up, but nah, rmb u're a fighter? :)

ah, so random so random. my brain aint functioning.somehow it needs to take a break now.
i blogged for the sake of blogging. till then.

11:45 pm

you're one in a million! Once in a lifetime.

Gawd, just so many deaths occuring nowadays, Nicholas just called me up and told me regarding the blood donation thingy n personally i feel guilty. He was like.. EH, rmb sunday i asked you if you have B+ blood help donate to my friend's mum. N i go.. ahh ok... so anyway, did you watch the news?! the news! The mum who just gave birth to the pair of twin died due to lack of blood.. n i go ahhhhhh......... n he goes ahhhh.. YES! exactly, we are feeling remorseful! Anyway, tons and tons of such thing is happening, theres really ought to have this sense of urgency to reach out and to truly treasure everyone around. Loved ones especially.

Alright, late in these weeee hour, i decided i need some wise decision on seeking help from some expertise for my coming UT. so i wrote a super cheesy email to my mentor seeking for help! Felicia mentioned it was not a very nice way to put "WHAT THE HECK" and all.. but still, the email has been sent out! N instead of studying for my UT, somehow my itchy fingers landed on the RP staff page. I slowly scroll tru and was in search for some hunky looking facilitators. Many claim that they enjoyed sports and this prove that hey! engineers not only have the mathematics mind, they are also physically strong! HAHAHA. Just look at our class for example, quite a number of us are engaging in sports WHAT! So, dun say we've only brains but no physical stamina okay? PRISC! hahaha. oh by the way, most of them look geeky. -.-

alrite, heading back to studying for UT or perhaps i'll hit the sack soon!

1:06 am

3:38 pm

STANDING IN THE GAP!

nah, i have so many many random thoughts. mixed feelings like arrrrrrh!!!!!!!!

The night before seem like a roller coaster ride, we were chit chatting and laughing at the stupid things we do in class and catching up with one another over at the wake. The next moment is you witnessing your fellow classmate in tears, frankly i was at a lost! I didn't know what to do. Many a times i put up a really strong front but deep down i am shedding tears! It's not easy to let go of someone so dear in your life. Well, anyway i went down today again for the wake to send A's mum off for her last walk, it was very saddening. It's like one of the saddest wake and the most tense wake ever! Seriously from the bottom of my heart. V physically strainning though. I have never seen people wailing loudly and whatever dramatic scenes i saw, indeed someone so true and close-knitted their relationship was. Well, anyway it was heart-warming to see true friends who really stayed by his side when he needed someone badly. Nice. You people are awesome!!! Have a very good rest though people! :)

I got pretty UPSET when i look at my fellow classmates and let out a SIGHhhhhhhhh! Can't they just stand in the gap? What's "last-min"?! Death never does wait for anyone. Well, whatever it is, its over! Pissed but argh! what can i do?! Anyway, Suki, love your attitude! u rock! As much as you guys dislike how straight forward i am or how unreasonable i may seem, i just cant be borthered anymore! No point compromising, i do what i think is RIGHT. Say all you want!


On a lighter note, india trip refund has been reduced! ARGH! hate it! OSG~!!!!!!

Next, hey tt fella replied my comments n i go WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~! jumping for joy! I'm so gonna ask him for help! den lifesaving was a rather great moment. Don't ask me why, but i enjoyed it! :) N yeah trip is coming up! Have yet to book the hotels. n i saw from the webmail lots more study trips available! LIKE YAY!!! N jin's happy!! everybody's HAPPY!

Stella, CHEERIOS! :) love u!

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11:31 pm

pamela and me.
n the 4 survivors! cum instructor.
FINALLY A VERY RANDOM PIC taken at jurong!!! :)

YAY! finally my guitar course is over!

Though my test didnt go as smooth as i expected with lots of hiccups espesically over at the chord changing part. but still, it was great! XIn HOng was more demanding at the start because i was the FIRST. It went on smooth and great!



COMMENTS from examiner: Good, your praise sounded exciting! I quietly laugh. HUR HUR HUR! It was because i was very kan chiong because i could not catch up with the chord change! A and B.. so irritating! n tarda, it made my playing exciting! oh man, God turn my situation around. HA HA HA! comments for XH on the survey form: XIn HOng v. gd la. though he's a little impatient. HAHAHAHA! when he saw it he laugh out loud. what a statement.



SO anyway, from the 12, we had 4 survivors! :)
so anyway, had a real fellowship wif them and found out what they were doing in life and all. Found out many things.. reminiscing the past. days in hollywood. talk bout youths in church nowadays. kind of burrden though.. see! it's 1.00am now! n i cant help but to pour my hearts out! i feel so burrden! alright, off to pray! devotion time! :) cultural mandate.

1. I need to be punctual.
2. Ought to dress appropriately. (SHARP)
3. Great contenance.
4. DO things willingly. Serve and not please people.
5. I am going to bless those around! YAY!

goodnight for now!

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