Posted at Monday, March 24, 2008
I'm back from tokyo and i don't like it here. In my heart i am planning for another trip cause i simply do not like to come back to reality. problem-free travelling but the moment i touch down singapore i begin to see the ugliness of singaporeans, the problems araising and the task to be done. Sigh, bow wow wow. I woke up from a bad dream this morning, I had left my valuables, bags and laptop all under someone's care for a short toilet break but when i came out everything went missing. I was devastated, super angry. I don't know why everytime my dream would be something evolving around me losing things, thats why i became extra careful with my things when i was over in japan. Nonetheless, i still misplace quite a couple of small little things but i guess thats fine.
I'm going for driving lesson again later and i'm scared. Really, my heart is tumbing, it's like.. SCARY! stress factor increases. Tmr, i'll be going down for this long-awaited swimming skill test if i fail that that's it! N i am pretty stress out with my butterfly stroke. I'm so going to practise later. Stress factor further increase.
Ytd, i check my ibanking and i realised that my pay was shortchanged. Disturbed and frustrated i called up zhi wang and ask him how much did he bank in for me. he said 45.. i was stunt. plucking up some courage i begin to msg shah to check with him. you know, i have had some problem with them regarding my swimming schedule. so yeah, problem solve, getting the rest of my pay tmr.
Then another problem, WOW. overwhelming. *tsk they are going to open a class for me on sunday noon which is a NONO because i've got minstry and they did not asked me or whatsoever! So how on earth am i going to accept it? They did not even asked me if i can!! i am utterly pissed. So if i reject them,. straight away i'm out.I don't know why but some people are really out there to make my life miserable, a living hell. There's a saying that goes: "ni zuo chu yi wo zuo si wu"
followed by talking to mr nus. sigh.. i'm upset. well. u see, i really really wan to migrate to a peaceful country. over here, my stress level increase, the adrenal rush shoots up! Ah, alright, back to reality, hopefully things becomes better.
10:11 am
Posted at Sunday, March 16, 2008
yah. finally i'm leaving in..... 5 hours time. woohoo, i am still trying to get over that crazy 9 hour swim last friday. i'm aching all over. yeah SQ.. i'm gg to sit there and watch movie! woohoo! byebye singapore. japan wo lai yeh!! :):)
5:59 pm
Details Determine Destiny.
Posted at Monday, March 10, 2008
hah, good ol' days. W20. days when the spects were still the huge round ones.
n our significant hair.
my "jesus' hairstyle, steph's pong pong hair. natalie's classic smile.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH. from GLORY TO GLORY. *loves
I just a dinner with the ET people and i felt really at home. :)
They were out celebrating stephanie's birthday, so i pop by. :)
see, i'm all smiling cause i really did enjoyed their fellowship, david being the usual lamer, is still the same yesterday, today and forever!
Okay, anyway, get to my point.. amongst them were many leaders. Lian, Su ting, Jerb, Jared, Steph. Other than them, it's people like del, sandy, david, wei wen, ravi.. all great servants of God, PCGL, zone guitarist. all awesome people, many who had once touched my life and played an important role in my life. All have moved on, i asked myself what am i doing?
Perhaps too busy with my life? Constanly filling up the jar with little stones and the pebbles? Negelected about the big stone which is to come? Did not anticipate that BIG stone?
I really don't feel satisfied. Stagnant and dwelling in my comfort zone perhaps. this 2 weeks messages, it's a message perhaps i have heard many many times, it seems like.. i want to avoid it but yet i feel stirred to want to do something about it! You know.. that kind of frustration. MAN! I need to do something about this. can't go on like this anymore. step out. lean on God, i caught this when kenneth talk about faith. Faith and logic do not equal. Faith is beyond logic! That's truly what i need in my life! I need a breakthough man. This year. hah, one catchy phrase that everyone kep saying, this year is a year of promotion and a year of attachment. Funny yet true! Do something babe.
shoot, sandy and i had a short conversation, as usual i always shun myself from conversations about my growth in the Lord, shoot knows me well. she understands my frustration and all, she's truly an encourager. I need to step out more.
breakthrough breakthrough breakthrough
pioritise pioritise pioritise
revival revival revival
growth growth growth
turn to your neighbours and say: this year is a year of promotion and a year of attachment!*giggles.. hahahaha!
p/s: For those who do not know what i am talking about, it's okay. it's about my exciting journey with my Lord. :)
1:18 am
hah, good ol' days. W20. days when the spects were still the huge round ones.