I am quite scared to think about what's going to happen this weekend.
I am sorry i cannot stop whinning.

30.07 SOT LESSON->CENTRAL to buy stuff -> WORK ->FOP -> OPM
31.07 OPM -> SWIMMING LESSONS -> Home to sleep -> FOP
01.08 MORNING SVC -> lunch with cell members hopefully -> dinner with Indonesia pastor -> Home to rest
02.08 Morning lesson -> Work -> OPM
03.08 OPM -> school -> work

ARGH!!!! I am going crazy! It's such a pack weekend!!! No time to breathe.

I reliased after my long vacation at home, the long period of staying at home to rest when i was sick, i grew to love that box at home! I am attracted to watching the TV programmes and i am looking forward to rush home to catch these variety show! HAHA, I wanted to meet belle or dravyn up for dinner but i think twice, because that would mean i will miss my all time favourite variety show!

HAHAHA, ok i am in the TV mood, VCDs and variety shows. Gosh, i don't know what had got into me.I just want to stay at home. I am going bonkers by this week's schedule. back to back. argh!

11:04 pm

I decided not to be so shallow.

Pastor Joshua Hong asked to write down 3 dreams and we were asking around.
Many of us had this on the dream column, get married and give birth to 3 kids.
LOL, while we were laughing over this, we realised how big the dreams of the foreign students were, planting churches and all and here we are, shallow shallow.

My dream:

1. Own my own cruise and travel around on it.
2. After the mission trip, i really think many people need the Lord, i have a heart for mission that is.

Okay, must be wise, not all dreams can be shared with the whole world. :) Some will just come and crush your dream. So this 2, the rest you can ask me personally if you're really keen.

till then,
dream dream dream

11:11 pm

Chapel session with Pastor Seah How was awesome.
Home-grown local SOT student who got rejected from a local Bible School because he said he want to plant his own church.

A dream birth forth but yet crush.
I remember what Kenneth said: "This days the SOT standard has drop, in the past it was about leaving SOT and starting to plant churches!"

This is one living example of a good SOT student. Haha, when he flased out Pastor Kevin Loo and his picture, he mentioned that if God can used this 2 faces to plant churches so can you! It was such a funny moment to be cherished. Just funny!

Honestly, it ain't easy and i am amazed by how much faith they have in the Lord.
That 2 deaths definately tested their faith and i must say i am very blessed by what Pastor Seah How had come to share.

The take-home for the day: Help people live their dreams and God will live ur dreams out for you!Do you know whats the dream of the people around you? (:

GBU!

7:17 pm

BORED AH BORED!
I am way way way too bored for this entry.
I want to go out, I want to meet my friends, I want to go service.
I want to meet Dravyn for supper,
I want to meet jasmine liew and esther for a girls night.
I want to go out to teach my little ones swimming,
I want to go guitar class tmr.

But... i am just told to stay indoors because whether this is H1N1 or not, it is contagious! 4 yr old Le-andra is down with fever because she had close contact with me, constance had the same symptoms with me after a day at riverwalk, my sis is coughing so badly last night and i wanted to ask her if she's having fever. I am even told to wear a mask at home and stay in my room! I am almost going crazy!

The food that i am eating is blend, very blend. the furthest i went is the coffee shop downstairs and i kept eating the same food, it killing me! AHHHH!!!!

2 more days to go...... i am well enough to be alive and kicking, but i am just afraid of spreading. You know i am so used to my body temperature now. I thought it's my normal body temperature. Rmb i told you i sneak out to SOT,I told Lai Meng i am fever-free now, but when she touched my fore-head she told me I am still burning!

I thought my fever had gone away, when i proudly told my mum that i am well! I took out the thermometer and it shows 37.6 and i go opps! How come it seems as though i have no more fever! This is weird. i am immune to the fever.Or rather it's the thermometer playing tricks on me!

I am growing moudly, God help me!

8:50 pm

It has been a long while since i last fell so sick, had fever, cough, sore throat, flu and just dizzy all day long. All i could do was to sleep and keep on sleeping. What happened? It was terrible. The coughing almost killed me because it just wouldn't stop.

I tried to smuggle my way through to SOT today because it's Pastor Kong's last day plus they are taking picture. I realised i almost fainted because everyone was gathered altogether and i was gasping for air. It was the first time i feel so weak.

okay, time to rest again. when u are sick all u do is sleep and sleep. it won't go wrong.

1:27 pm

picture of the season, with nik, tash and nad.
I am determine to look this "cool" in time to come!!! hahaha!


Anyway, yay, my first attempt driving to and fro from home to riverwalk and riverwalk back home.
I remember i was praying on that vehicle that fine day. I was laying hands on the steering wheels, praying that i will never meet with an accident on this 4 wheel-ed red thing.

I am happy because i force myself to drive smoothy, everything there's a jerk or if i stall, i try to evaluate what exactly happen, i am happy i am able to drive better now. Although there are still room for improvement, but i am happy enough because i feel comfortable enough in a multi-storey carpark. Maybe the worst i met is the one at the multi-storey carpark opposite Jurong Point? Yeah!

Driving is really an adventure, you go into a wrong route and many a times, you panick. I saw J's ex-bf with a new girl! I was shock, so i slow down to confirm and true enough, it's them! (:

Side track, i have a new class! 3 more students an that's extra allowance everyweek again! So happy! :) More to come, i pray.

Honestly, SOT is killing me, for the past few weeks, i have been so drain, everynight i keep thinking of assignment. Ministry hours, A part of me is hoping SOT will end quickly, because this hectic schedule is killing me. 2 more preaching test to go, 2 assignment, fivefold1, fivefold2 and sermon on the mount test, all happening this week. Wah! I have a weak heart, 4 more weeks to go! A part of me wants this SOT thing to go on and on, i don't want to graduate because it's quite fun! I enjoy the company of my fellow team-mates, plus the friends i make during this course.

Amazing, ok back to ulf ekman's. tatas!

9:57 pm

Does a good mission trip be equate to how many signs and wonders you have done?

I would think it got to be the experience you gain in 1 mission trip.
Let me summarize what i did over in Indonesia.
It was crazy traffic jam on Fri night, PIE was jam like crap! Jurong to changi at 20/30km/h. -.-
Ed Tay and a few was there to send us off. :) Of cos it was greeted by
little Nathan: BYEBYE AUNTIES AND BYEBYE UNCLES!!

Met Pak(Mr.) Roy once we touch down Surabaya.
We were told to split into 2 group, 1 to Malang another to Propolingo. So that is 5-5.
About an hour journey before we reach the church in propolingo. Greeted by pastor and family, and our dearest interpretator,Thea, She's really young. 17yrs old and so on fire.

Our bed was so tiny, but thank God we're not too huge.
There was 4 service and every service was equally good. Presence of God was there and we were all enthusiastic. We took turn to take different segment of the service.
I took testimony in S1, took offering in S2, and did preaching and ministry in S3. haha!

This awesome trip is measured by:
1. Watching them being touched by the presence of God.
2. Crying and moaning for more, their hunger. tsk tsk tsk.
3. See them travelling for 2 hours or more just to attend service.
4. See the pastor getting so blessed.
5. Preaching at a pulpit through a microphone to a congregation.
6. Giving my first altar call and people marching forward to recieve a touch.
7. Laying hands and people falling under the power of God.
8. How bless the pastor is.
9. How can i forget the good food and the fellowship.
10. Dinner with the Pastor from GBDI Elohim, Pastor Raymond's auntie whose auntie is Megawati.
11. Shopping at night after all the sessions with Pastor.
12. A 2Hr Honey Spa at Sidoario, eating at A&W

Overall, yep, super blessed trip and i really want to return back.
I was tearing buckets when we had to leave them. Honestly, i feel very burdden and i am going to return in time to come to hear pastor preach in English! :)

9:27 pm

O well, i lift it all up to you.

10:04 pm

I can't help it but to feel sad when i see everybody progressing.
Where am i? Still stuck in my own tiny weeny world.
What happened? Am i too full of myself or too in my own world?
What really happen? I want to move on too. I ought to do something!
Sigh. Let me do something worthwhile. Everybody is moving on. moving on BIG TIME!
I am perhaps not too focus and lose track along the way. Just what happen?!?!

Okay on a side note, i am really excited for the mission trip that is to come.
GG with the ET people!!! YAY! I really enjoy being with them!!! :)
I saw the video on Shing's blog, i cant help but to think of those good days we had at the camps,
we'll hug together and cry, we'll snore together, look really ugly together and have soooo much fun! I really don't think it will happen anytime soon ever again! I really love camps! haha!
okok, test tmr. n i just to know i am going to prepare for my 4 whopping sermons to be preached!! rahhh...

10:55 pm